“Destiny awaits!!”

Story of my life is so miserable right now. Due to one problem, i have to stay at home all the way. I did what they want me to do. I did everything already but still i have been controlled!!Imagine a 19 year old guy being controlled. Its so shameful when people know about it. I am big enough to take care of myself. I want freedom. Since my secondary days ended, i only had freedom for 2 years. Now all my dad tell me was 'meet your girlfriend once a week only'. 'later mummy scold you how?' Everything mum don't allow. I am a guy. I am not a girl. I dont wana be controlled. Why cant my mum understand??FML!!!Its all dam fuck up. If this happens for the rest of my life, i am gonna suffer, get over bored and do many awful things!!!

posted @ 12:03 AM

hey syg,
today was not that enjoying day for me.
I had breakfast, went shopping wif my parents, bought movie cd and some other stuffs.
Ryte now i am alone watching tv and nothing to do.
Well, sorry if i hurt u by dancing with some other girls but i din even touch them. so yeah
I got some surprises for you when i meet u...
I miss you soo much. tmr i am coming home and its your birthday...its already asar so happy birthday syg....i guess i am the first to greet u. I hope you enjoy your day tmr.
I got somemore presents for you when i come back.
Luv u soo much..
muacks to my princess my darling....

posted @ 10:12 PM

today wasn't a great day for me syg..I did not enjoy at all.
Right now i am alone in the room with no one hear. My parents are the other room.
All that you have said in your blog really touch me alot.
I have deleted everything about that anggun's pics.
I miss you soo much.
I am so proud to have a girlfriend like you.
How am i gonna pay you back?everything that i have done to u badly.
I have never seen such a girl like you syg.

I am serious my beloved princess.
All i want now is stick to you forever and this time nothing will happen to us.
In 2011, everything will be peaceful. We will be happy always. Your deeply deeply in my heart.
You still din give up on me even though all that things happened.
I wont cheat you this time.Trust me.
Princess dila, may i have your hand so i could touch it with true love?
Princess dila, may i have your lips so i could kiss it with true love?
Princess dila, may i have your eyes so i could dazzle at you with true love?
Princess dila, may i have your body so i could hug u tightly with true love?

posted @ 1:07 AM

hello syg..
Well, so far we have been happy with each other. Today was a great day. I hope you do enjoy. Well i still can remember the 4th place for my competition but i overcome myself already. I enjoyed today alot.:).Happy advanced birthday syg and happy 1year and a month anniversary.I hope you like those stuffs i gave you. I enjoyed my day today swimming with you, hanging out with you and many more things. I hope tomorrow will be a good day as well. Please dont think of that anggun syg. Please. I only like her...I only treat her as my god sis..thats all...Please forgive me for what i have done. I wana be with you forever. I try my very best not to chase other girls. I have confident that we will be together. You will be my first and the last. Please don't give up on me. I love you so much to the core!!I just ask my dad and he said its too late to change..:'(..i am so sorry ok?i am really sorry...I know sorry seems to be the hardest word. Now u agree with it?Give me the punishment please..I really deserve it. I am not there for you. I deserve it..give me more punishment that u could ever possibly give. I deserve everything. Maybe next year for my birthday, you dont go out with me?so yeah..sry ok? haix..how am i gonna repay you back..:'(

posted @ 10:22 PM

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinking bout us
What we gonna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin
man I swear I see your face at every turn
trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for
No more will I be missing, will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
Now I'm wishing she would pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes,
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back
Down that road
Will she come back?
No one knows
I realize
It was only just a dream...

posted @ 2:22 PM

My love right now is quite down. I am really no mood now. Although my love is down, i still wif u ryte now. Ans just because of all those post, u not happy. Must why u go n delete ur fb. So simple as that. Don't have to terasa if u delete ur fb. Don't ever u spoil my career. This is who i am. How can you easily get jealous whereas i am alrdy attached to u. Its like wth isnt it?Sikit je alrdy jealous. Whats this??What a soft heart u have. Is this call changing urself?u got almost one month left to change. I wana c the change in u. No change, thats it, ur out of my life. Crying isnt gonna help u at all. Becoming sec 3 alrdy n ur still crying because of a small thing? its lyke omg!!i wonder if u go into my secondary life n u cry in front of ur classmates. I think they would be laughing at you. You think i got time to do all the stuffs that u ask me to do??Take a look la now what tyme??If you every spoil my sleeping time, you better watch out. My love is totally down and dont bother to ask me to meet u. i got no mood!!..n i will be ok soon. Just stay at home n think bout what have you done to me.

posted @ 12:22 AM

hi there, got something for you
My syg, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honour remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak of sacrifice at world's end
The wind sails over the water surface
Quietly, but surely
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer you the silent sacrifice
This is my last part of the poem that i made it...i believe your love is ok now

What love we're given, we'll have forever.What love we fail to give, will be lost for all eternity. This time, its me the one who must treat u well. Lets see if it works. I really love you so much. All i wan is your love and your eternal slumber. I wan everything from you. every single thing..hmmm....so excited to meet ya on thurs. see u on thurs den.;) muacks...

posted @ 11:12 PM